The Forever Now

So my request may be a little odd for me, but before we move further can you click play on this video and listen? It has everything to do with exactly what played through my mind the weeks leading up to an during the creation of this piece. 

Go ahead...I'll meet you back a little way down. 

If you're a fan of that beautiful melody, you're not alone and if you're a fan of the TV hit, "This is Us" you are definitely not alone. Some people don't watch because it causes tears and too much emotion but I love it (I would, though, wouldn't I? ). Never mind, this is not an ad for the newly completed series nor am I promoting it ... (and yet please add it to your watch list if you haven't, please and thank you!)

I've been an avid watcher since its release in Fall 2016 - the episodes always reached me in my heart, but this specific scene from this one did in a different way. When this near-end episode aired, we had just learned days before that my mom's cancer had metastasized and that we were out of options. 

Mom and I were processing this news together, discussing what was to come and how we would tackle it together. 

And we were feeling. Deeply and very intensely feeling.  Time was running out...

Fast forward 3 weeks my mom was gone after whirlwind that left us whiplashed. I needed to do something with all of the anguish, grief, gratitude - everything left behind in me - it had to come out and that beautiful song, Forever Now, kept playing through my mind as if it owned me. 

It followed me and it had ever since I first heard it back in mid-April. 

Because really - all that we have is now. And the timing of this coming out hit me so hard and has stayed with me. 

So I needed to honor my mother a couple of weeks after her passing. I needed to honor her with art and pour out the thoughts and feelings and emotions and grief inside and I kept hearing over and over those beautiful piano keys...

Time is a precious thing, isn't it? Every moment matters. 

What we do with them, those moments - who we spend them with and how we spend them adds up to matter so much more. 

Every moment is precious so I poured it out into this soft-vintage inspired time piece with soft pinks and creamy peach to depict all the memories of and with my mom that I will onto forever. 

And months later when I look at it now? I'm reminded how those memories may eventually get dusty and muted as they're pushed into the outlying cobwebbed corners of my mind...but my mom will always be part of my forever now. 

Time seems to stretch on endlessly and yet is so short as each second ticks, adding up. All any of us have is forever, now. 

I'll share some links and details for you about the project and the lyrics will follow. Thanks for peeking and hearing my heart. 

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The Forever Now

Mandy Moore

They say time will tell
But I think he likes to keep secrets
So we'll wait and see
But it's just as well
The years can be counted in seconds
That's fine with me

'Cause I get this moment with you, forever now
It all hits me at once forever now
If there's a right way to say it
I'm still learning how
Maybe all that we have is a forever now

Been been lookin' for words
For feelings that shouldn't get spoken
It's something I do
I'm starting to learn some silences shouldn't be broken
Just listened to

I get this moment with you, forever now
It all hits me at once forever now
If there's a right way to say it
I'm still learning how
All that we have is a forever now

'Cause I get this moment with you, forever now